all little depression within my heart

my heart surrounded by misery, i know i was wrong. all those things that i have done was my own responsibility. i have never encounter such situation like this. when i know that i can't be the one who you dreamed about, i just make a single step back to let you watch and give you a space to think.
i remember the way i got your heart, yeah i know someday i'll feel the same way. all i can do is just  sit down and defend my own affection with my faith to you, i don't give a sh*t to him, the one who always be the best for you and the one who always love you.
as long as i thinking down here, finally i got one conclusion for myself. i'm not ready to be with anyone, because i can't make you happy and i'm just a little bastard who always underestimated by people around you. even being lonely is another suffer condition, i think that is better than when i'm with you and all i can do just to make you sad..
how pitiful..